You know when you’ve had one of those days that’s engulfed by stupidity, nonsense and a complete lack of logic being applied to almost every situation? Well I’ve had one of those days. It probably started last night when my laptop decided to be a complete arse and tell every program I had open to not respond to me. In hindsight, that was probably a good thing because I was about 300 words into writing an article that I wasn’t really feeling. In turn, that has saved you from reading it. You can thank me later.
When you look at some of the bigger issues going on in the world, my day seems like a walk in the park. However, it’s all relative and Tuesday, October 14th annoyed me a lot. I should probably tell you that I’m a dweller. I dwell on things rather than talk about them and they either go away or they fester. That’s what normally happens anyway. Today has turned out slightly different and it’s become a day of contemplation.
I won’t bore you with the intricacies of today’s enlightenments; rather, I’ll keep it on point and provide you with tenuous links as to why this article has been categorised as ‘gaming’. I had another article posted today and for all intents and purposes, the material is half decent. Half decent is not perfect however, and I’m one of those people that need everything to be rainbows and milkshakes for me to be happy with it. If I’m honest, I’ve not been completely happy with the stuff I’ve written recently. I think I’m trying too hard to be a gaming writer and I may have lost whatever it was that made my writing enjoyable to read. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had some really good feedback from people that have read some of my stuff but still, there’s a little part of me that isn’t 100% happy with it.
When I say I’m trying too hard to be a gaming writer, it’s something that has only a few branches with which to expand upon. The first branch is a simple one. I love gaming, I like the knowledge I have around gaming and I like being able to share my opinions and enjoy conversations around it. The second branch is that writing about a somewhat niche topic gives me an air of pretentiousness that I love. You could probably say that writing is a fairly pretentious hobby but again, it’s something that I genuinely enjoy doing. It allows me to express myself and actually chill out.
So we’ve established that I like playing computer games, I like being pretentious and I need everything to be perfect. We’ve also established that I’ve not been 100% happy with my previous articles. Confused as to how we’ve got to this point, where this article is going or if there is a point to it at all? Me too.
With everything I’ve said above, I decided to get back to basics. I have a blog that I haven’t written for in absolutely ages. There aren’t really any topics; rather, it consists of a few articles about my feelings at the time, my thoughts on certain things and one or two life experiences. It’s decent because it wasn’t forced. When you’re trying to write about a certain topic it almost becomes forced as you’re thinking about the next subject matter. If that happens, you’re not going to get the perfect article and in some cases, it’s difficult to get your personality across.
When I said I decided to get back to basics, I started to think about what makes my writing good and enjoyable to read. The first thing that sprung to mind links back to my degree. My degree is in Sociology and Popular Culture and even though it’s done absolutely nothing for me on the job front, it has taught me to be a pretty decent social commentator. The second and pretty much only other thing that I can think of was that I just wrote. I didn’t think about it when I wrote for my blog. I didn’t read back through the article to see if it was flowing, contradictory or on point. I just wrote it.
So that’s what I’m going to try to do from now on and hopefully it’ll make things much more enjoyable for you. Can I call myself a social commentator on gaming? I think I might. I told you I was pretentious.
So that’s my contemplation summed up regarding the articles I’ve written and how I want to develop them. If you’re still reading, then you must have absolutely nothing to do or you’re being forced to read it because I’ve rammed it down your throat. I’m sorry for either instance.
Now how do I relate this article to gaming? Erm…I suppose going back to my rubbish day could provide a decent bridge… Ok, let’s go with that.
I actually feel much better now but if I wasn’t writing this I’d probably be on the Playstation or staring blankly at the TV screen watching a pointless documentary about Louis XIV and the reasons behind his love of the Palace of Versailles. Let’s for arguments sake say I was on the PS4. I don’t know what it is about playing a game to help you forget about everything that’s bothered you that day but there’s not much better. It’s not even just for that reason though. Sometimes, I just like to waste a day playing games. It’s not healthy, nor is it sociable but it keeps me sane for a little bit longer. I was off work yesterday and all I did all day was play FIFA. I was bored out of my skull doing it but I did it nonetheless. With hindsight, would I change how my day went? Absolutely not. Did it help how my day went today? Not in the slightest. Do I need another day like it? Yes, sir. Can I explain it? Yes, but I can’t be bothered right now. Maybe I’ll do that in my next article.
PS – If you’ve been wondering what the hell the subheadings are, they are three days’ worth of ‘word of the day’ from the Dictionary App. No, I won’t tell you what they mean, look it up yourself.